Lessons learned through Christ

I have been down this rough road for so long, I finally gave up trying to change things I have no control over. I believe the quote goes like this:
Please grant me the courage to accept the things I cannot change;
The courage to change the things that I can;
And the wisdom to know the difference.

There is a lot to speak to here. So much so that I forgot my way a ways back. I put myself on "auto-pilot" and now I'm letting the Lord lead me back to where I am supposed to be; in His light, not Satan's. Believe me when I tell you I have not been out there sinning on purpose by any means... but I have been carrying a burden on my shoulders for way too long and I finally let it go. Now I'm in the process of cleansing myself to bring my soul back to the Lord, where it should be. My journey will be tough, but it has to be done. I have so many vises in my life that had to be put aside and put down for good... All I can do is pray for those that have hurt me and my family, those that have no understanding at all what it means to live "Christ Like". All I can do now is set the example and hope the others follow... in time.

When I realized I could no longer control this problem, I gave it up to God. He takes on anything you give Him. He is always there for you, thick or thin. When I reached out for help so many years ago in faith, it took no time at all before He picked me up in His arms and put me where I belonged. Baptising my daughter this past weekend helped me in seeing the light again that I had "misplaced" a while back.

I miss so much the closeness that I once had with the Lord that I am now yearing to have that feeling back. My heart and soul burns for the happiness I once had... alas it is NOT lost, just set aside... I have asked the Lord to help me through this tough time in my life and He is doing just that. He is taking on the problem/s that I have been facing for far too long. He has helped me in such dispair and helped me with overwhelming joy! The Lord helped me conceive a child!!! How much more joy and satisfaction could one feel? If I completely opened my heart up 100% to all the wonderful joyment I have from my daughter, I think it would kill me... it's so much love for one person to feel... how do you get past this and know in your heart that you deserve such happiness? Because YOU DO deserve this much happiness! Everyone does in their life! God gave us free will to make our own decisions, our own choices... to make ourselves happy and to live in His freedom that He provided to us so long ago on that precious day!

Ok, let me wipe some tears off and come back to you with this: just when you think all is lost, the one person/being/spirit that is still with you is God. He never leaves your side... not for a second! The Lord is oh so good to us in so many ways... I have my wonderful husband who loves me for all my faults and I have my miracle daughter who brightens my day and my very being just being in the same room with her. Oh, and when she smiles... she could brighten up the saddest person... Oh how I love that daughter of mine!!! Thanks be to God for all that You do every day in our lives!

Leanna's first Christmas

We are SO excited to celebrate the birth of Christ with Leanna for the first time! When the time comes to open presents, I'm pretty sure she'll be more interested in the paper and the boxes than any toys! LOL!! She has recently, however, started playing with toys, like her rattle. She more or less looks at them and tries to put them into her mouth. :-)
Leanna laughs and smiles so much now. She's such a happy baby!
Tomorrow is a BIG day for us! Leanna is getting baptized! We are very excited about this and are really looking forward to the big event! I'll put up pictures later one once tomorrow passes.